A weekly treatise on committing to one’s heart instead of hiding inside a career of acclaim, acceptance, and complacency. In 2022 at 33 years old, I left my career as a doctor, where I could earn $400,000 per year. I owed $200,000 in student loans. I quit because that life was killing me. And it wasn’t medicine’s fault. I have plenty of friends who love medicine, who love taking care of patients. It was my fault; I never wanted to be a doctor. I needed to find out what I wanted. My life was ...
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I never denied it. But I never fully accepted it. In the end, this diabetes delusion led me into medical school. And now, finally, into an understanding of who I've always been. --- Essay Link: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/08/15/25-years-later-i-accept-my-type-1-diabetes-diagnosis/ Type 1 Diabetes Physiology: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XfyGv…
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I thought I was fooling people, but I was only fooling myself. Everyone, deep down, knows if we're about it... or not. And I figured out the tell. ---- Join my email newsletter: https://fightmastermd.com/newsletter/ Read this essay on my website: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/07/25/knock-knock-i-wasnt-home/…
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I thought it best to leave medicine behind me. It was just an eight year chapter that I wished to never repeat, right? Two years of time has revealed a surprising opposite: I can't survive without it. ---- Essay Link: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/07/18/cant-live-with-it-cant-live-without-it/ Newsletter Sign-Up: https://fightmastermd.com/newslette…
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Just because you leave an adolescent age (and enter medical school... and become a doctor... then become a psychiatrist), doesn't mean adolescence leaves you. Or so I've lived and understood, only now, at 35 years old. Better late than never. ----- Erikson's Stages of Development Link to this week's essay on FightmasterMD.com Get my 7 Days of Alive…
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When it's all said and done, I hope to own a collection of choices that helped me understand who I am. And I hope I made the right ones because they're going to impact everyone I know. We're all in this together. ... Email me at fightmastermd@gmail.com for your free copy of my audiobook. Essay link: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/07/03/the-eternal-…
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For the past eight years, I've been afraid to pause, scared to rest, and reticent to enjoy. Unconsciously, I knew I couldn’t bear the risk. But now, I consciously understand I must. ____________ Essay Link: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/06/27/a-first-in-many-moons-the-hunt-stops/ Send me an email (fightmastermd@gmail.com) and I'll send you a promo…
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We play the game of our life to discover who we are. That and other revelations had while watching my wife's tennis tournament. ... Get my free course here: https://fightmastermd.com/newsletter/ Read this essay on my website: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/06/20/what-does-it-mean-to-lose/Par Fightmaster MD
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I just understood why I really wrote my first book: to prevent myself from ever making my medicine mistake again. But playing the game not to lose is no way to play the game. To step forward, I remembered a sage piece of little league advice from my dad. ___Newsletter Sign-up HEREThis week's essay HERE…
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When I look back now, it seems I always meant to be a psychiatrist. Out of necessity. If I wanted to open up a door into a future that wasn't just a replication of my past, becoming a shrink was always the skeleton key. ... Book link: 32 Lessons from 8 Years Lost in Medicine Essay link: Written in the Stars: Psychiatry and Me…
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They say, "Wherever you go, there you are." I'd like to add, "and so follow your object relations." When I went to medical school for my family, I unwittingly melded medicine and family together. Only after I left, could I see the two as separate, make peace, and gratefully love them both. ----- Got a story of integration yourself? I'd love to conn…
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Turns out, owning a sense of self kinda matters. Essay Link: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/05/23/how-little-everything-else-matters/ 7 Days of Aliveness: https://fightmastermd.com/newsletter/Par Fightmaster MD
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Life was "... not so clear to me as I have for a long time imagined." Thanks to Rousseau, I've seen my motivations for what they are: obscured by the lies of my whys... until I'm ready to see the truth. Today's essay link: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/05/16/all-my-whys-were-lies/ 7 Days of Aliveness Course (FREE): https://fightmastermd.com/newsle…
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I went to medical school to secure my family's love. I found out what love really is while becoming a psychiatrist. And ultimately, I left medicine to put that love into practice. .... Get free access to Ryan's 7 Days of Aliveness course: https://fightmastermd.com/newsletter/ Link to today's essay: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/05/09/the-hardest-g…
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Good days deceive. Bad days reveal. Thanks to my dad, I remembered the difference. ----more---- Essay link: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/05/02/a-lit-match-away-from-internal-combustion/ Get my free course Seven Days of Aliveness. Linked here: https://fightmastermd.com/newsletter/Par Fightmaster MD
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The only way to live a life without regrets is to have regrets. Regret is where our story starts... as I came to understand this week by watching The Devil Wears Prada. ----more---- Article Link: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/04/25/the-betrayal-the-regret-the-wholeness-deliverance-by-the-devil-wears-prada/ Newsletter Sign-up: https://fightmastermd…
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Sometimes, I just simply do not know what's best for me. ----more---- Join my weekly newsletter community here. Read today's essay on my website here.Par Fightmaster MD
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I wasn't one for the jungle gym. I'm a kickball guy. I knew that once, it's just taken me awhile to remember it. ----more---- (Every Friday morning, I write an email of camaraderie, aimed at supporting you to build a life you love. If you'd like to join our community, you can sign up here and receive this week's email.) Essay Link: https://fightmas…
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To play the game, the battle to figure out who we are, we have to pay the cost of admission. House rules. ----more---- Read this essay: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/03/21/before-i-learned-how-much-i-needed-to-change/ Visit my website: https://fightmastermd.com/ Join my newsletter: https://fightmastermd.com/newsletter/…
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"Fighty, we're all on the road back to who we were in high school." ----more---- Along with the wrong lessons, I lived out a few of the right ones too. My first book is a summary of all 32 of those lessons, available now on Amazon.Par Fightmaster MD
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To get where I want to go, some things cannot be sacrificed, like the present. ----more---- Every Friday morning, I send an email from the trenches, where I'm working to build a life I love. If you'd like camaraderie on your own journey, follow this link to join our community.Par Fightmaster MD
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The biscuit tastes like shit without a dash of risk. ----more---- Every Friday morning, I send out an email, seeking camaraderie on the trail to a life we love. If you’d like join me, sign up here.Par Fightmaster MD
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With a story at our back, we take a step into the dark and write our own. You can read the full text essay on my website, here. You can join my weekly newsletter community here.Par Fightmaster MD
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When you're no longer interested in looking back, it's time to stake something in the ground. Each Friday, I send a weekly email of support to those trying to build a life they love. If you want in our community, you can sign up here.Par Fightmaster MD
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Over nine years, I learned the implication of unrequited pride: in the truthful places. ... On Amazon and Kindle, get my first book for $2.99 (a limited-time sale). Thank you to everyone who's supported the book's launch. Let's keep livin' a life we love.Par Fightmaster MD
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There are some things, once compromised, that the health food store's promises can't even keep alive. _________________ Now available on Kindle, you can purchase my first book 32 Lessons from 8 Years Lost in Medicine. For all the support since its launch, I cannot thank everyone enough. Let's keep on livin' a life we love.…
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Snoozing is harmless. Everyone snoozes, I thought to myself, when I chose to snooze today. After all, it's only nine minutes. But nine minutes matters. Ask my throbbing ankle. ------------ My first book, 32 Lessons from 8 Years Lost in Medicine, just published on Amazon. If you’d like a copy of the e-book, here’s a link to purchase.…
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I don't always know why I'm doing things. If it feels right, I try to trust the process. But on Monday, after an episode of inverse déjà vu, I knew precisely why I did what I'd done: 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨. ( I recently published my new book 32 Lessons from 8 Years Lost in Medicine. If you’d like to a copy, here’s a link to purchase the e-book.)…
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I exercised. I slept. I hung out with friends. I meditated. And yes, I was happy. But something was missing. I always knew it. Last week, I published my new book 32 Lessons from 8 Years Lost in Medicine. If you’d like to a copy, here’s a link to purchase the e-book.Par Fightmaster MD
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There comes a point where one must be unreasonable. You have no choice. This week, my new book 32 Lessons from 8 Years Lost in Medicine released on Amazon. If you'd like to buy a copy, here's a link. Link to this week's essay: https://fightmastermd.com/2024/01/11/if-its-reasonable-its-a-lie/Par Fightmaster MD
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People ask my wife and I why we moved to Asheville. Often, we haven’t had an explanation other than it felt right. Often, I've thought we’re kinda crazy. But last night, I felt a little less crazy and a little more alive, knowing that there in a shed while picking up furniture I couldn't wait to get to work on, my mountain biking stoke had survived…
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It only took me eight years to figure out a back-handed compliment ----more---- Until December 31st, I’m sending free copies of my book to anyone who signs up for my newsletter. You can join my community here and get your book today.Par Fightmaster MD
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Don’t worry about me, I have no strip clubbing to purge from my system, no “legs and eggs” brunches calling my name; but I do own another desire, one I neglected a decade ago, that I reckon with now as I start a different career. Until December 31st, I’m sending free copies of my book to anyone who signs up for my newsletter. You can join my commun…
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Seriously, you’re trying to make $50 off a coffee table? You have $200,000 in student loans! Wake the hell up! This isn’t going anywhere! For a limited time, I’m sending free copies of my first book to anyone who signs up for my newsletter. You can join my community here, and get your book today.Par Fightmaster MD
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I don’t fashion myself a singer. But for this one night, last Wednesday night, I had to sing. Why? I have no idea, but I was compelled by something within that had to know. For a limited time, I’m sending free copies of my first book to anyone who signs up for my newsletter. You can join my community here, and get your book today.…
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If I had to guess, I'd be this is adulthood. ----more---- For a limited time, I’m sending free copies of my first book to anyone who signs up for my newsletter. You can join my community here, and get your book today.Par Fightmaster MD
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It’s an interesting season of life, this one. And often, I ask myself this question. Some days, I can bear myself with grace. Other days, I crucify myself for not being good enough, wondering if I should pull the pin and get back to something I’m better at. How I live out this question, in this season, will determine if I can the avoid the familiar…
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Sometimes, to learn a lesson, I deserve to get locked out of the house. On the coldest day of the year. For a limited time, I’m giving away free copies of my first book to anyone who signs up for my newsletter. You can join our community here, where we work to create a life we love waking up to, every day.…
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Just this week, trekking on, I look down and see my boots are dry. No more cypresses, only pines, and trails fork in all directions. And all I see is meaningful work, swamped no more. This week I published my first book. For a limited time, I’m giving away free copies to anyone who signs up for my newsletter, here.…
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Life won't let you see what you're not ready to understand, until you can bear it. And this week, life gave me one of those views when I needed it most. This week I published my first book. For a limited time, I'm giving away free copies to anyone who signs up for my newsletter. Join here, and I'll email you a copy.…
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I recently devoured The House of God. What a book, outlining the fictional intern year of Dr. Roy G. Basch, which makes one think about the empty promises of medicine. It makes one wonder if it was worth it. ----more---- From a life I was not, I learned who I was and learned 32 lessons I’ll never forget. Get my free e-book outlining each lesson, HE…
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Third year of medical school, on internal medicine, in October, I peered from a window and knew I was no longer a part of things. I wanted fall to be over, so I could find some future salvation where I’d once again know the seasons. By being 𝘪𝘯 the season. This week, I tell of my life now, through another window, back in the middle of fall, wanting…
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But there, sipping my coffee as I watched the still early morning saltwater, I realized every single second was meaningful. Orange County was never dead. I was never dead. If anything, the place brought me back to life. From eight years of inauthenticity, I learned 32 lessons I’ll never forget. Get the whole list today by joining my weekly newslett…
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It's really not complicated. When you sacrifice who you are... you lose what you love. House rules. Here's how I got 𝙞𝙩 back. ----more---- From eight years of inauthenticity, I learned 32 lessons I’ll never forget. Get the whole list today by joining my weekly newsletter, HERE.Par Fightmaster MD
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I expected victory—sure, we’re the University of Oklahoma—but existential questions I did not expect. Then, I watched this epiphanizing play. Link to the full article ----more---- From eight years of inauthenticity, I learned 32 lessons I’ll never forget. Get the whole list today by joining my weekly newsletter, HERE.…
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A younger me would have picked up compromise's call. Today, I called bullshit, letting it ring off the hook. ... From eight years of inauthenticity, I learned 32 lessons I’ll never forget. Get the whole list today by joining my weekly newsletter, HERE.Par Fightmaster MD
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But it takes time to take the medicine out of the man. Joy wasn't found in leaving. Joy wasn't found a year after leaving. Joy was found in choosing. If we let past conditioning own our lives, it'll never let go. But this week, a window opened, and I chose my way out. ... From eight years of inauthenticity, I learned 32 lessons I’ll never forget. G…
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“You can always leave,” Bryce said, piercing eyes shifting from players to me, “because man, life’s too short to get stuck doing shit you hate.” ... From eight years of inauthenticity, I learned 32 lessons I'll never forget. Get the whole list today by joining my weekly newsletter, here.Par Fightmaster MD
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I once owned a good-looking home, constructed with attention and dedication, but the foundation was questionable, and it sunk right into the hole from which it came. Join my weekly newsletter and receive my list of "32 Truths Earned on the Path to Wholeness" (https://fightmastermd.com/newsletter/)Par Fightmaster MD
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I meditated more. I was "present" more. I kept a gratitude list. And none of it helped, until I restored what mattered most. What was I really missing all those years? Join my free weekly newsletter for advice at building a life you love (https://fightmastermd.com/newsletter/)Par Fightmaster MD
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To be tempted by the “best of both worlds” makes us human. To give it up makes us who we are. Working part-time, in the chillest job of all-time, finally spelled my exit from medicine (and sparked my deliverance). Sign up for my weekly newsletter for perspective on owning a life you love (Https://fightmastermd.com/newsletter/)…
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